Do you really want to know the real me?
I am the one who's husband said to her, last night,
"If I could've seen years down the road and known that you would be sick all of the time, I would've scratched you out of my life and moved on."
and
"Some days I just wish I could be with someone who doesn't have so many physical issues."
That's what my life looks like.
Did you see that coming?
Probably not.
Neither did I, after 13 years of marriage.
I'm sure you could imagine how those words echoed in my mind;
the pain that pierced my heart,
the feelings of lonliness that seized me at that very moment.
I don't know what the future holds, but I do know that,
even if my husband feels this way about me,
I have a love, a true love, who will NEVER hurt me so.
He loves me, unconditionally.
He holds me as I cry from the pain and stores all of my tears in a bottle.
He tells me He will NEVER leave me or forsake me,
that I am His princess.
I am precious in His sight.
He is the one who gave His very life out of His pure, unending love for me.
He protects me from all who seek to destroy me;
I can trust Him alone.
He brings me peace, a peace that is uncomprehensible, in times of chaos.
He paints beautiful pictures in the sky every morning and night,
because He knows how much I love them.
He paints the world around me with such brilliant colors; incorporating shapes and melodious sounds,
because He knows that when I see and hear them I am reminded of just how special I am to Him.
So, you see, that even if my husband has a hard time seeing me as the person I was made to be, with all my faults, ailments, and quirky ways,
He sees me as whole, perfect, and precious.
No, He isn't another man. Another man could NEVER love me like He does.
He is my Lord Jesus Christ!
Without Him, I would have lost heart.
He is my One True Love, and always will be.
In Him I have hope.
In Him I have a purpose.
In Him, I have worth.
Noone can ever take that away
I am thankful that the Lord we serve gives us eyes to see the way he desires us to see. I see a woman, who is beautiful, who is compassionate, merciful and gives till she bleeds in tears. I see a woman who is a good and patient wife, a wonderful mom who teaches and loves who children, a gorgeous friend who loves with passion and gives even more than she has. I see a gorgeous woman whom I am thankful to have in my life!!! I love the woman you are, the REAL woman you are! l love you my dear and faithful sister! Lottie
ReplyDeleteyou also have friends who love you, who care so deeply about you, who pray for you and who will be here for you always. :) anytime, I am here, 24/7 i love you! Lottie
ReplyDelete((JULIE)) My heart cries out for you in this time of pain. I pray that God will honor your trust in him by comforting you and by speaking truth into your husband's heart and convicting him of his sinful selfishness. I pray also that God in his mercy would touch your body and give you renewed health.
ReplyDeleteI love u sista!
ReplyDeleteThank you for all the wonderfully encouraging comments. I know that I am loved :) Since this day, my husband has repented and is allowing the Lord to work in and through him in a way that he has never done before. Praise the Lord!! The Lord has comforted me continually and has brought me to a place of healing, in my heart. I am very blessed to know that the Lord is never done with us and that when we cry out to Him, He always hears and delivers as only He can. <3 to you all :)
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